suprised!

kamis kemaren, ada cowo yang menghilang dari hidup gue muncul lagi. secara hobi dia itu datang-pergi-datang-pergi lagi-datang lagi, jadi secara harfiah gue udah ga terlalu expect too much sm dia. kamis sore, gue chatting msn sama dia. and he said like "yay gue lagi dengerin cd dari elo nih" padahal biasa nya dia jarang banget-nget lah nyapa gue dmsn.

dimulai dari msn itu, eh tiba-tiba malem nya dia nelefon gue. ngobrol biasa lah sama dia, gue nanya-nanya ttg uan dia gmn, lancar apa engga. dia udah ga tinggal di jakarta lagi, dia pindah ke kota lain. yaa jujur gue seneng bgt dia nelefon gue, tapi ya gue bingung "kenapa tiba-tiba begini?" tapi ya gue tetep ngobrol ajaaa, tanpa mengharap lebih.

besok nya, dia hari terakhir uan. dia ga nelefon gue sih, tapi gue liat di fb nya tiba tiba dia ada di public, padahal hari kamis nya itu dia bilang ga mau ke jakarta hari jumat. sumpah gue bt gtu pas tau dia ke jakarta, dan dia ga bilang gue.... tapi ya gue kan bukan siapa-siapa dia jadi yasudah. gue sms dia aja nanya gimana uan kimia nyaa, terus dia blg lancar yay! trs gue tanya lagi di jakarta ya? dia bilang iya, kmrn gue ke public haha! akhir nya gue tanya ntar dia mau kemana, dia blg gatau. yaudah gue suruh ntar kabarin gue. gue sebener nya punya firasat dia ga bakal ngabarin gue ( because he always do that) yaa udah cuma gtu doang gue bt tapi ya gpp toh ntar gue bakal pergi juga sm temen2 gue, jadi i was trying to ignore my feeling.

gue sama temen- temen udah rencana bakal ke public, malem nya dia nelefon
boy : yay dimana?
yay : mau jalan ke public, knp?
boy : haha, gapapa. tadi kan suruh kabarin
yay : (speechless,kaget bener-bener dikabarin)
boy : yaudah deh daaa

pas gue baru mau balik dari pulang tiba-tiba hp gue ada sms
yay tadi nya gue mau ke public juga, tapi mobil gue ga mau di starter!
gue bls
hah? mau ngapain ke public??
dia bls
mau suprise in elo getooo cerita nya

speechless part 2!

akhir nya dia ga jadi nyamperin gue dan gue pun pulang, pagi nya dia nelefon lagi.

what a wonderful holiday!!!!

sunset-set-set

I remember the day you first told me that
I was the man that had your heart
From that day forth I knew that nothing would
Ever come and tear us apart

So then people try to warn me about you
Said that I should never trust you
But so stupid so me I didn't listen then
I let myself go fall in love with you

(What happened to us)
You were supposed to be my future
Brought the ring and had to take it right back
(Were you really in love)
Or was I just a game to prove to yourself
You could get a me (yeah)

You're more beautiful than anything in this world
More precious than the rarest diamond or pearl
And even though we didn't work out together
You're still my sunset-set-set-set
And I know that you and I are two worlds apart
But you'll always be the one to have my heart
I'm gonna love you for now and forever
Cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

Your innocent smile used to drive me wild Even though you ain't innocent at all
And now I feel so stupid cause I'm the only man
That ever loved you even with all your flaws
Even your best friend questioned why
I still would be with you after knowing your past
But what she didn't understand is knowing your past is why I thought we could last

(What happened to us)
We had something special but
What? Was I not good enough for you
(Are you really in love)
Can't show mine was fine
Cause without trying i still ended up hurting you (and I'm sorry)

You're more beautiful than anything in this world
More precious than the rarest diamond or pearl
And even though we didn't work out together
You're still my sunset-set-set-set
And I know that you and I are two worlds apart
But you'll always be the one to have my heart
I'm gonna love you baby now and forever
Cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

Maybe one day we'll end up talking again
Maybe one day we'll go back to being just friends
Promise to love you baby till my life ends
Cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

No matter what happened between me and you I'll always be the man that you could run to I loved you then I love you now and forever Cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set-set

this is sunset lyrics from marques houston

this lyrics so awesome, there's some part that might be so riggghht!

karma does exist

karma In Buddhist teaching, the law of karma, says only this: `for every event that occurs, there will follow another event whose existence was caused by the first, and this second event will be pleasant or unpleasant according as its cause was skillful or unskillful.'

do you ever think that you have earned karma? because this last days, i've been thinking about something I can related to karma. I think I got karma here, I said something awful about my ex new girlfriend and now I see that I got everything I said about her, for example I said she is dumb now I kinda like boy who as dumb as she is. do you get it? It is karma...

note : i'm asking for apologize from my ex and his new girlfriend, for all my annoying awful things i ever did to you guys. especially for you my ex, I'm so sorry for being such a jerk. You deserve someone so much better than me as now we can see your girlfriend... :)

tragic little story

In January, I know one truth. I'm regreting love someone... The one I love is A guy that so beautiful, he makes me laugh and cry, he likes to sing, he likes to called me "unyu"..

When I'm with him, I just can't stand it. I know that I love him.. And magically he feel the same too ( he said that to me) but sadly he told me that he have to go away.. He said he has to stay away from me bacause if he get close to me it will be more difficult to go.. But the fact is I can't stay away from him..

And we had this talk,we can't stay away from each other. So every-single-night he called me, we just talked until we got sleep, by the way he like to snore :)
He always call me at night,until My friend told me that he kinda-like another girl ( after he said, he like me ) and he lied to me about the-go-away thing. It kinda push me hard, I really really mad with him,so we were not talking for like 2 weeks. I cried like a baby, I miss him so damn much.. And God give me present,he called me and he acted like nothing happened. So I think,nothing changed..

so we back to our habit every-single-night calling,haha! everyday my love just getting stronger,even though my friends didn't like him anymore because he always make cry... eventually we got another big fight,and this time I confess my whole mid to him and I know the truth that he not love me back anymore,ooo-ooo-oo-ooo my world turns to black and white.... and he said,he'd rather stay away from me! I have to let myself dying to not knowing about him..

and God give me another present,he text me and told me that he miss me and want to meet me! what a wonderful thing,so the next day he show up in front my house with his bicycle and we laughed, talked about a lot-lot of things, and he asked me do i want to go to his grandmother house with bicycle! We went to his grandmother house, we had some fun there...

after that day,I'm not hearing a single thing from him ( again ) and guess what I met him at New Year Eve, I met him and he only said "happy new year ya? bye" DAMN YOU BOY! after all we have been through.. I cried that night,that is my worst new year ever.. I miss him, and I know it's not right I just too much in love with him afterall he just being rude!

I'm the one that so down, so blue, so simply sad.. now he's gone i just want to say take care,dear jum... I don’t feel sorry for myself because loving you is just worth it.. but keeping this love for you it is what I regret! So can you guys know now how many pain I have to take? Please don’t hurt me anymore,I just too broken to be more broke ( dumb oo dumb) and help me to be strong-independent woman? by the way that guy love miss independent ne-yo song..

p.s I already post it at my own facebook notes, but i like to post it in my new officialy blog heee ;) cheers

(no) white lies

okay, gue mencoba jujur gt deh sm nyokap gue kalo sabtu ini gue mau ke ulangtaun shakilla di taman ria sampe malem, gue bilang gue mau ke acara malem nya di public. 2 minggu sebelum hari ini, nyokap gue sih iya-iya aja. sampe kemaren gue bilang
me : " iya, ulangtaun shakilla sampe malem mah."
mom: "malem nya jam berapa? "
me : "ya jam 12an kalo ga 1an lah"
mom: "udah gila apa kamu! enggak, mama jemput jam 11 di sana!"
halo, gue jujur mau ke public aja ga bole loh boi,sadisme abis. gue boong nih kayak waktu itu,bilang javajazz ampe jam 3 dia malah percaya,giliran gue jujur gue ga boleh pergi gtu? bingung ga sih jadi lo harus ngapain? zzz, si anggi sm shaki denger nya cuma geleng2 kepala doang denger gue mau ke public pulang jam 11, duduk juga belom ya! kalo kata anggi mah! shittt aboy! jadi mana yang bener? boong malah bisa pulang pagi atau setiap jujur ga bole pulang lebih dari jam 9? kecuali ulangtaun? pathetic bangetttt sih yaaaaaa! so the point is maybe white lies doesnt matter when we use it for good or happy things, rite?

new thing, say hello

hello, ini blog yang masih sangat baru. baru kayak berapa menit yang lalu gtu! haha! ini semua berkat keisengan gue yang didukung oleh adani haha! gue tidak mengerti ini apaaaaan, hayo loooo! ya semoga seiring dengan lama nya gue pake blog gue makin ngerti ya haha! diajarin sama my lovely pacar embah, adani. yang sekarang lagi nge-edit blog ku juga haha! thankies adani sayang! muaccch